Beauty Influencer Has More Than 13 million followers on TikTok and known for posting honest beauty reviews. Over the past few months, Nogueira has also shared videos documenting her mental health journey, after reveal In July, her eating disorder hit “rock bottom.”
In a Tik Tok posted on August 30, the 24-year-old makeup artist explained that her “self-hatred” had reached an all-time high, and that it had a lot to do with the pressures of being a social media influencer.
She began the video, “I have to talk to you guys about something I’ve been really struggling with for a long time.” “In the past two months, my self-hatred has really exploded.”
“What I mean by that is that I hate myself,” Nogueira said. “I don’t have confidence, I hate my look, I haven’t felt beautiful in months, and I don’t know why this is happening to me.”
“Well, that’s a lie. I do,” she interjected. “It’s this job.”
Nogueira went on to explain how being a social media influencer – “a job that requires you to stare at yourself all day” – has caused her to part with everything about her face and body. “Over the past several months, I’ve started to totally hate myself,” she continued. “I don’t feel beautiful without makeup, I don’t feel beautiful with makeup, and I hate looking in the mirror. I hate taking pictures of myself, I hate taking pictures of myself.”
The Boston native said the worst part about her current mental health is that she has “completely forgotten” who she is as a person and feels lost in her life. Nogueira also noted that she stopped doing her makeup the way she used to, prior to her viral fame, due to pressure to follow certain beauty trends.
Nogueira’s body dysmorphia — a mental health condition in which a person can’t stop thinking about one or more perceived flaws or flaws in their appearance, according to the Mayo Clinic — was felt by many of her fans in the comments section.
even pop icon lady gaga Comment some words of encouragement to Nogueira. “I’ve had this before and still do sometimes and sometimes it’s good to take short breaks from the mirror/camera just to calm the mind,” she wrote.
“Remember that not everything in life has to revolve around your career and that doesn’t mean you’re not loyal, it just means you’re human.”
Others took the opportunity to praise Ngueira for being honest and vulnerable about her mental health and self-image.
“As a content creator, I got this. Someone said, ‘I don’t wear makeup like you but I follow you, because you make me smile and I love seeing you grow.'” I’m so proud.
Another TikToker commented, “Your ability to communicate this when you’re in the middle tells us how strong you are. I feel for you. You’re beautiful Michaela. Inside and out.”
A third person said, “This breaks my heart.” “You are really so beautiful inside and out. Take any time you may need. We will always be here for you and love you!”